Letter To Myself
Last year and the year before last and for as long as I’ve had this blog I’ve apologized and complained about inconsistency. It’s done nothing for me. So I am taking a different approach. I won’t “talk about it” since I’ve already talked about it to death, instead.. I’ll be about it. Here goes. Below is a post I made on IG (and sure you could just go and see it there…but you’re here. I’m so glad you’re here.)
01•19•19 | Was chatting with some friends of mine this week and it prompted me to write. Ya know, women talking about women things. 😂❤️I was going to write a letter for my one day daughter. However, I’ve found— it feels and it is easier to project wisdom vs applying it.
“I’ve found it feels and it is easier to project wisdom versus applying it.”
So instead I wrote the letter to myself. With hopes of it echoing to the women that I know who too needs to hear it. Because if I REALLY want this to be a practice and a mentality for my daughter(s) and generations to come, it has to start with me. At some point we have to make the decision to be where a thing starts and finishes. So here goes:
At some point we have to make the decision to be where a thing starts and finishes.”
Dear Queen,
He’s not rejecting you. Instead he’s rejecting the discomfort that comes with you. The growth that having you around requires. He’s rejecting the Christ in you...(which contrary to the world who would encourage throwing the entire man away 😂 ) somewhere beneath mess, lives in him, too. (Yes, He’s God’s child too child. Get over it. Lol) He’s rejecting the mandate to grow up, to be introspective and to change. This tension that you are experiencing... that’s easier to cast in the name of “rejection”.. that’s easier to swallow as a direct attack of you, has nothing to do with you. Settle that.
Now here’s the kicker, you love him? Intercede for him. (Read that again, because I know you read that fast) intercede for him. Call everything out that you were privy to seeing, hearing and knowing and lay it at the feet of Christ. (Because isn’t God his creator? And can’t God go in and assist better than you?) Does that mean stay? No. Love yourself AND him enough to know that there’s STILL some developing that needs to take place before two lives become one.
That’s putting love into action. It’s okay. I know it doesn’t feel good. But staying won’t either. Placing blame won’t either. Calling it rejection and leaving it as such won’t feel good either. This requires spiritual warfare. However you can’t fight a spiritual issue with carnal weapons.
He’s not rejecting you. Instead he’s rejecting the discomfort that comes with you. The growth that having you around requires. Love him anyway. Just different & from a distance. But even in this, you’ve got some growing to do too.
Kindly,
Alicia Elizabeth XoxoXOxoxXO
